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Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Who Knows
Who actually knows why people use these sites to vent or to say how there feeling. As of late i have never known why people have blogs, i always thought it was just another excuse to use the internet. I have now figured why. As a man i find it hard to talk about whats going on, especially in my head thats another issue to talk about. i found that by writing down whats going on it tends to make me open up a bit better to be able to talk. When Carrie wants to talk about children and what not i didn't really know what to say so all i did was say what ever came to mind. i just personally find it really hard to say the right words because i just cant think of the appropriate word. so when i do talk about children i can and have said the wrong thing without even wanting to. It really does suck.
So about the whole "who knows" why people use blogs i cant now see why they do. i must be honest here i always thought the internet was only good for one thing and that was the porn sites. but i have been trying really hard to not look at it.
Man im random at this blog thing but i shall get the hang of it. its just been able to make sense of what im trying to say
So about the whole "who knows" why people use blogs i cant now see why they do. i must be honest here i always thought the internet was only good for one thing and that was the porn sites. but i have been trying really hard to not look at it.
Man im random at this blog thing but i shall get the hang of it. its just been able to make sense of what im trying to say
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Today I Snapped... And I am so Sorry!
Well I woke up this morning like any other human, funny I know. I took Monty out side well because I thought he needed to go and string a darkie! I came back in to go back to bed, and Carrie asked for Monty so I went and got him, and we cuddled him (yes yes I know not a human but he loves it), Carrie started to take a few photos, and it started to bug me and I snapped... For the next 1.5 hours I cant remember much. All I know is I hurt my wife and I hate myself for it, there is a new hole in the wall and Monty is scared of me. I know I got a slap, and it hurt!
But reality hit, when Carrie took Monty and packed her bags and left, I realised I had nothing left, so the wall wore it. I broke down and cried like a REAL man should. After I went to clean up the mess and this what the hole now looks like.
I think I completely miss my mum, come the 24th it would be 4 years since she died, and it is too handle to handle. This is a Letter I wrote long ago.
TO MUM,
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY... I WANT YOUR CUDDLES... I WANT TO SEE YOUR SMILE... I NEED TOO HEAR YOUR VOICE... YOU WERE TAKEN FROM ME TOO SOON... EVERYTIME CHRISTMAS, EASTER, MY BIRTHDAY AND YOUR BIRTHDAY COMES AROUND I CANT HIDE MY TEARS OR MY SHAKEY VOICE... MUMMY I LOVE SO MUCH... WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO? I KNOW YOU ARE WATCHING ME EVERYDAY AND HAVE YOUR HAND ON MY SHOULDER BUT SOMETIMES THATS NOT ENOUGH... MUM PLEASE COME BACK... YET I KNOW YOU HAVE AND I SEE YOUR SMILE SHINING DOWN FROM HEAVEN, AND YOUR VOICE IN THE WIND TELLING ME IM A GOOD BOY AND AM DOING YOU PROUD... BUT STILL MISS YOU EVERYDAY... R.I.P MUM - 24 FEB 2007
LOVE
YOUR LITTLE BOY PAUL xoxox
But reality hit, when Carrie took Monty and packed her bags and left, I realised I had nothing left, so the wall wore it. I broke down and cried like a REAL man should. After I went to clean up the mess and this what the hole now looks like.
I think I completely miss my mum, come the 24th it would be 4 years since she died, and it is too handle to handle. This is a Letter I wrote long ago.
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